Chapter 323: My Opinion
(From Blue's Perspective)
I did not remember when I fell asleep. But when I woke up, it was two in the morning. I squirmed on the bed under the warmth of the blanket and then sat up.
"You woke up? Good. Have your dinner."
Dem was drinking a glass of water, standing by the bed. What was he doing? Why was he not sleeping?
"I was hungry, so I ate something. You should eat too," he said before I could ask.
"Close the window. It's cold," I said, wrapping the blanket around my naked body.
"The air is pretty chilly tonight," he muttered as he walked over to the window. He was wearing his loose robe which covered his body partly. His front was exposed up to his hips. I had a hard time not looking that way.
"You knew I would wake up?" I asked. Seeing that the dinner was already in the bedroom even though I was sleeping, it must have been him.
"You had lunch only and then, you did not eat anything. It's obvious you would wake up," he said. "I should have made sure you ate before we had sex."
"Why...?"
He did not answer, just slid under the other blanket. We used two blankets as one every night. It was too cold these nights, especially since it had been raining almost every night. Although the blankets would heat up, we still needed two.
"Dem, you... you did this on purpose, didn't you?" I asked suspiciously as everything fitted together in my head. "Luc will be coming tomorrow. He will ask for the answer. We were supposed to talk about it tonight. Yet, you...
you did this at a time like that so I would be asleep and would not be able to talk about it? And then, you will just manage to say no somehow tomorrow after Luc comes? Even after I told you..."
His eyes grew darker. "I don't want you to leave," he said firmly.
"But I want to! What about my opinion?"
"There was not supposed to be any, to begin with."
"... W-What...?"
'Haa, he has not changed... How foolish of me to think he has changed...! It's just like the beginning when he used to tell me that he did not care about my opinion. He only wanted me by his side. It's just like that time...'
"I don't mean to offend you right now. But truly, I don't care about wars. I just don't want to lose you."
"What's the point of talking anymore?" I chuckled. "You won't listen to my opinions anyway. I am nothing but a living doll wife, huh? Well, do whatever you want. I am tired, I really am."
He did not say anything. I lost my appetite, so I ate very little. Then, I laid down to sleep. It took me only moments to fall asleep. For some reason, I sometimes fell asleep quickly if I was sad or angry.
That night, I did not have any dreams. But I had a stuffy feeling inside me. The reason for that feeling was not unclear at all.
In the morning, I woke up hearing voices. When I opened my eyes finally, I realized it was just Luc who was cursing.
"Luc...? What are you...? Where is Dem?"
"It's very wonderful that you noticed that bastard before your husband," Dem replied coldly from the couch.
Luc was in front of the bed, trying to check a mirror-like thing. "What are you doing?" I asked Luc, ignoring Dem's remark.
"Your husband is very protective, after all. He asked me to make this, the first thing after I came here," Luc grumbled.
"W-Why? I mean, hasn't he given you the answer?" I asked, confused.
"What answer? He said you can go if you want to. It's your choice," he said.
"What?"
I looked at Dem in utter confusion. Even last night, he said my choice did not matter; there was not supposed to be any value in my opinion in the first place. What was he saying right now?
"Don't look at me like that. I only said you can go if you want to, but I need to watch over you," Dem replied, not looking at me.
"What is that thing?" I asked.
"That's a mirror, but not really a mirror," Luc replied.
"Like hell I will understand!"
"What I mean is, it might look like a mirror and can be used as a mirror, but it is actually something different. You see, Demetrius will keep an eye on you using this. You need to wear a bracelet, a special one, of course. Then, there will be a fly flying around you the whole time. It will show you in the mirror and he can watch everything in that way."
'Isn't that like a drone?'
"So, I have to wear the bracelet for it to work? What if I take it off, or it accidentally gets taken off?"
"Then, it won't work. The fly follows the bracelet. Wherever that bracelet is, the fly will go there and fly around it. If it gets taken off, then you won't be seen in the mirror anymore," he said. "But the main question first- do you want to come with me?"
"... Yeah," I nodded, glancing once at Dem. "It's to prevent the war. We can't let war break out when we can at least try to prevent it."
Luc looked between Dem and me, then sighed. "Blue needs to cover your face. You will go as..."
"That's fucking ridiculous!" Dem yelled, standing up.
"She needs to go undercover! And why the fuck are you yelling? Do you even know what I'm going to say?" Luc yelled back.
"How can I know if you don't tell me?" I asked. "You two are not giving me a chance to even know."
"She is not going as your mistress or whatever!" Dem yelled.
"It's not like it's the truth! She will be covering her face and wearing a wig. No one will recognize her," Luc said.
"The question is- does Ruby know?" I asked. "She is your wife. You need to ask for her opinion when it comes to matters like this."
"She knows. I mean, it's not because I thought she would mind. You told me to share as much information as I could with her before we got married. You are more experienced than me when it comes to matters like this, so I listened to you," Luc mumbled. "I told her about it. I met her before coming here this morning.
She said it's alright and she trusts me and all of you."
'So, it's not wrong to say it's my credit, right?'
"Dem, I know it's not a pleasant thing to hear. I understand it too. But it's just an act," I said. "Please, just this once."
"Well, what kind of person do you think I am?" Luc grumbled. "You think I like the idea of saying something like this? It's too weird. I would never even imagine something like that! But right now, it's very important. Don't you think it's a good thing that it's me and not anyone else?"
I was wearing my nightgown. Dem must have put it on me when I was sleeping. I got down from the bed and walked over to Dem. I knew he trusted both of us and was not worried about us doing something. He just did not like to hear that term.
"It's just disgusting to hear," Dem muttered.
It took me another fifteen minutes to convince Dem. I needed to reassure him again and again that even if it was disgusting to hear, it was just an act. He would see everything through the mirror or whatever it was. He agreed after I said that I would wear the bracelet even if I go to the toilet.
'You want to watch me take a shit? That's weird, but anyway, I won't be using the toilet there. My toilet automatically stops in a crisis. I think my body has its own thinking ability. I cannot use the toilet if I am not comfortable. I don't even feel the need to use the toilet if I am not comfortable.'
"We need to go right now. It is nighttime there. You will get out of my room in the morning, so it will be clear that you are my mistress. We will fix your name and where you are from. If everything goes well, you will be able to return within a day, or maximum two," Luc said.
I was a bit frightened but tried not to show it. What horrified me was the clothes I needed to wear. I did not have any clothes that Lacuna's women usually wore. And as someone's mistress, I was supposed to wear a blouse that showed my belly and a skirt. I had worn crop tops before in my world, but it felt weird to wear these. But I had to admit that these clothes were very beautiful.
Perhaps they were just not meant for me.